30 days to a better me!

I am exited. So I had a few days alone at my parents house and I began to think about myself and where I want to be. I know right now I am taking on some new projects so I know I have to change myself and evolve. I  decide to give myself thirty days to change and start the journey of becoming who I want to be.  March 28 through April 28 I am going to be full force. Most importantly I am going to be consistent. That’s is going to be the most challenging and the most rewarding. 

Where have all the children gone?

According to the World Development Indicators - World Bank, the United States life expectancy has went up, reproduction is down. Data from 1960 to 2008 has shown a decline of the average of children per woman. In 1960 the average of children per woman was 3.65,in 2008 2.1. So what happen? During the 60’s the U.S was experiencing another era of woman’s right fight for equality. Also, in the 1960s and 70s the there was increasing number of stay at home moms who were entering the workforce. Women became more liberated from there stereotypical roles. 

My parents had three children, and each (excluding me) child only has one child.  I have notice that a lot of women are more focused on their career than starting a family. I am personally one of them. Women are also getting married later which could also contribute to the decline of childbirth.  Is it a good thing that women are having fewer children? I guess it depends on the woman you ask. For me personally, I am glad that each woman now has the choice to decide.

-world according to april

Do you believe in Visualization?

David Seidler is not only making headlines for winning an Oscar for best original screenplay for "The King's Speech," but also beating bladder cancer in what some would consider an unusual way.  Due to the advice of his wife at the time, Seidler visualized his cancer into healthiness and within two weeks his cancer was gone. Tonight I was watching the Biggest Loser and one of the contestants got into a car accident and was told she may never walk again. She said she visualized in her mind that she was walking and she eventually begins walking.  These recent stories made me think about two books that I have read, The Secret and the Law of Attraction. These books states that you can literally have anything you put your mind to. There are things you have to consider like maintaining a positive energy.  I know there are a lot of opinions regarding this matter and good arguments on both ends but I buy into the hype. It’s is basically the same concept of prayer, faith and letting go. I remember my first apartment and this job I wanted a few years back. I was at these apartments with a family member and I ask to look at the one bedroom. I fell in love with it but new tenants were about to move in and I didn’t have a job at the time to get it anyways. Then there was job I wanted but was denied because I had too many previous jobs. I was in college at the time and I would get a job and drop and job.  With my vivid imagination I did think and visualize about those two things. It was on my mind but I was not obsessing over it. One day I went to apply at the temp agency and got the job I was denied and end up being kept on permanently. Of course with a job I decided to go apartment hunting. I went back to that apartment complex to see if by chance if the apartment was still available. It was just hoping because it has been last then a year since I last visited and most people get a year lease. Well it was available. So I end up getting the job I was denied and the apartment that I didn’t have money for and once preoccupied.  

These situations happen way before I read the books and I can honestly say that it has been a real struggle to visualize like I previously did to retest the theory. I am currently attempting to try these methods but my concentration and attention span is all over the place. Right now in my life it hard for me to focus. It’s like when you first try to lose weight you constantly think of unhealthy food. I will keep trying and I will update you to let you know how it will turn out. By the way, “Do you believe in The Secret, Visualization, Law of Attraction?”

-world according to april 

Spiritual Makeover

I had a Mary Kay Makeover this weekend. It was random because I was there to support my cousin who is starting out with this company. I started out as a visitor and ended up a fashion victim. I don’t want to get religious on your ass but it was an unexpected spiritual experience.  How can a Mary Kay Makeover be healing you ask?  Well let me tell you a story , a story of me that is!

 I have been in a rut the last year or two. I feel like a lost sheep that strayed  away from the flock(dramatic but true). I have been in and out of meaningless jobs. I literally have been a zombie. Yes people zombies exist, they just don’t walk around  in bloody shirts and eating organs. There are so many people who are unhappy and unfilled walking the earth. It’s like your alive but your soulless, each day that passes by is the same. There were days when I felt  like the only way I could feel anything is if I cut myself or get hit by the bus.  It was not depression it was sense of purposelessness.  I want to change, but I am an “ I am going to do this when…” type of person.  When I save money, lose weight, blah blah blah. It’s like  in order for me to change I have to change this first about my situation and myself. Guess What? I have not saved enough money and I’m still eating McDonald's. I found out that I am a product of self-sabotage. I set these goals for me to fail then I use this as my excuse for failure for not changing. That’s not healthy and I don’t know why  I do it. I take that back, I do it out of fear. Fear of stepping out of my comfort zone, fear of change, fear of success, fear of  being the best me. It sounds crazy but I have become complacent in my failures. It is my home. I don’t know myself without it….Please don’t commit me for my thoughts, I am just being honest….It’s sad I know but if I can’t be honest with myself then I can not change….Anyways that is a little  back story.

At the makeover the speaker was saying that when January comes we say we will do this and that, it’s March, what have you done? It made me think, what have I done this year, last year, or the year before. Nothing.  She was telling us about her life and its ups and downs. It was motivational. Naturally this lady was in the business of selling and she was selling her story to us  for a reason but It was a good one.  It made me think of faith and how I get in my way. I can blame it on others or my situation, but in the end it is me who has the deciding factor. I know it’s time for a change but once again its what I don’t have  and what I need to make  a change. That’s what my mind is telling me anyways. I guess I need to step out on faith. The speaker also said be careful of the advice you heed “Don’t take advice from people you wouldn’t trade places with,” she said exactly.  Which made me evaluate the people I listen to and made me think about how I need to stop giving my advice or opinion. I definitely know people wouldn’t want to trade places with me. She went on saying don’t listen to your friends or family or anyone that would discourage you. That’s my main problem. I always ask people their advice and what they would do and equate their opinions in my final decision. The truth of the matter, the only opinion I need is mine because I am the only one being affected by it. It’s a cop out sometimes when you ask people for their advice because  you(I) don’t trust yourself enough to make the decision on your own………I am getting long winded it is time for me to sum it up. I am going to step out on faith more, but most importantly have enough faith and trust within myself to do what I need to do in order to take myself in the right direction to advance to the next level in my life!

-the world according to april 

Media Overexposure: Charlie Sheen Edition

I love entertainment as much as the next person but when is there a stopping point? With all the things going on in this world, mainstream news and media are currently obsessing over the debacle of Charlie Sheen.  I think these are the times when the subjects or news worthy stories become more in control than the sources that report them. I was watching The Today Show regarding the Virginia Tech shootings and they were debating how much information should be shared regarding the gunman. It became a conflict when they realized that part of the shooter ‘s plan was to get publicity. He knew that what he was going to do was going to make the headlines. I guess the Today Show grew a conscious and did not want to play into it but it was too late. The problem is I don’t think the media factors in their subject agenda of them using the media vs. the media using them. Right now it’s the Charlie Sheen Circus and he is the ringleader. He even decided to join the twitterverse to get his point across.  But we love it right? We watch real life people struggle and judge them as they continue to spiral down to self-destruction. Who need soap operas anymore?  I also remember when a CNN reporter got frustrated when she was reporting Paris Hilton leaving jail and said enough. Shouldn’t we say enough at some point when entertainment news becomes more reported than the actual news?

-world according to april